thought #3

Maryland wins the competition for having the most aggravating secondary to fill out.  At least so far.

Georgetown wins for having the most expensive secondary ($130), followed closely by GW ($125).

So glad that the schools around my home are all winners.

I still want to be a librarian

The book I’m working on right now for Wadie is “The Legend of Spud Murphy”.  For some reason, it really makes me happy and I have all sorts of pleasant memories now of basically growing up in the library.  Since my mom volunteered in the library, I spent almost every summer living in the Gaithersburg library.  I’d go through the shelves making a huge pile of books I wanted to read that day, and parked myself on a couch for the rest of the day.  It was fantastic.  Thanks, mom!

Edit: the librarian’s name is Angela, in the book. Perfect.

half the year left

• all of my friends & family who wished me a happy birthday
• Nicki for giving me quite a mystery to solve when she didn’t write on the package who sent the food erasers
• Adam for waffles, noticing a skirt, and the “AAMCAS gift card” (hah!)
• Judy for the equivalent of the gift card
• Wadie for mailing me my check on time.  Yes, this is unbelievable.
• being in the limbo zone right now with respect to secondaries
• Alex for sending me her life update email first (!).  I love not feeling like the creepy prodding person who demands time.
• Ashleigh moving to Philadelphia
• Megan for consenting to come dog-sit for Dill – I trust her most with the beasts.
• re-installing the Sims 2
• my mom, because without her, I wouldn’t be here and would not have had a fantastic birthday yesterday

How to Sleep

Let your mountainous forehead
with its veins of bright ore
ease down, the deep line
between your brows flatten,
unruffle the small muscles
below your temples, above
your jaws, let the grimace
muscles in your cheekbones
go, the weeping muscles
sealing your eyes. Die into
the pillow, calm in the knowledge
that you will someday cease, soon
or late, late or soon, the song
you’re made of will stop, your body
played out, the currents pulsing
through your brain drained
of their power, their purpose,
will frizzle out through
your fingertips, private sparks
leaping weakly onto the sheets
where you lay breathing
and then not breathing.
Lay your head down and relax
into it: death. Accept it.
Trick yourself like this.
Hover in a veil of ethers.
Call it sleep.

- Dorianne Laux

summa

• being done with the MCAT (for now)
• selling off several of my MCAT books – hope I am not jinxing myself – to make some extra dough for applications
• having the AC unit in the bedroom at night
• a fierce little watchdog who considers it her duty to sit by the window the entire day until Adam comes home, to guard me against everything.  Including squirrels.
• having a fantastic, supportive boyfriend
• my sister (and cousin) having fun in Taiwan; technically Korea, right now
• Smuckers’ peanut butter
• Adam’s dad & Susan for including me on the birthday cake (along with Adam and Dan).  Which was also an ice cream cake with fudge in it.  Oh yes.
• most of the fruit flies are gone.  (also for now)
• friends like RB, Megan, and Jen who also do Thankful Thursday regularly
• Sarah for liking my squashed cookies

to add

12. English mastiff
13. greyhound

(to the list)

1001

• La Sylphide and dinner last night c/o Judy.  It was a gorgeous production.
• the beasts for being very cooperative and quiet lately since it’s so warm
• AMCAS and AACOMAS are now in the process of verification.  All transcripts have been received, my primaries are completed.
• having a job with Wadie.
• seeing Alex last weekend and actually getting out and about in Philly
• giant slices of cake at 4th Street Deli
• having good health
• monthly update emails from friends
• hair elastics

living with fools

Adam keeps an empty bucket in the backyard which has been steadily filling up with water from the rain.  I’m actually not sure as to the purpose of the empty bucket, but regardless.  Our clever, beloved dog also has a habit of whenever we let her out back to do her business, of literally leaping from the top step into the yard – sometimes hitting the back fence.  Today she managed to leap right into the bucket (not empty, half full of water) and topple it onto her head.  Then she ran around the backyard for a few minutes with the bucket on her head and water dripping into her ears.

The cat still comes running whenever he hears me start to use the lint-roller.  He loves being lint-rolled.

The dog got her head stuck in the cat door to the basement this morning in an effort to get at a treat the cat had taken to snack.

The cat ran headfirst into the bathtub yesterday.

The dog missed two steps when going up the stairs and slid down the stairs on her stomach.

The cat tries to make daring leaps across the room and misses, resulting in landing on his ears.

I’m really not sure which one is brighter.

Time Does Not Bring Relief

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year’s bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide!

There are a hundred places where I fear
To go, – so with his memory they brim!
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face.
I say, “There is no memory of him here!”
And so stand stricken, so remembering him!

- Edna St. Vincent Millay

one day more

• one last exam for the year (cortex)
• being accepted into my #1 choice lab for next year, in clinical psychology & ob/gyn
• Bookshelper
• vegetable cream cheese
• Guang and Mark for reading over every draft of my personal statement thus far, and providing very helpful advice
• having a sister I am close with
• “You have beautiful corneas.”
• the Office & 30 Rock
• Ryan for thinking of me and sending me an mp3 of a cappella “Here (In Your Arms)” this morning